Man, do I relate to this. Add to that the fact that if your whole life you are told that you are "really smart" and "can do anything", it becomes absolutely PARALYZING when there is something that's actually really hard. For me, part of how that all got mixed up in my brain is that I think I've been really struggling with my weight for so many years because it made things EASIER to have one thing that I just couldn't do. If I could lose the weight, then the idea that I could "do anything" might be right. But if I couldn't lose the weight, I always had that to fall back on when something else wasn't going well. "See, I couldn't do THAT, so maybe I'm not so smart and capable."

Now that I am losing weight, I have to tell you that sometimes it's really scary. I think a lot of the problems I've been having lately of being so terrified of what might happen if I don't succeed as a director, and in some ways more terrified of what might happen if I DO, are all wrapped up in this, too.

Thanks for posting this. Really good food for thought.